a sad and angsty observation on feedback

[rodneyscat]

It's getting worse and worse, the way I feel totally and utterly incompetent writing proper feedback. I can sit there grinning, horny, sniffling, delightfully confused, thoroughly shaken or however a fic has affected me, opened comment window staring at me, and I can feel the joy of what that fic has done to me seeping out of me, because I can't put it down in words. All that comes out are lame clichés, things that could be recycled and used for any fic. I close the window, and put the fic in my memories, to come back to later, hoping something more profound will come to me then. Something that really says 'thank you for making me feel this way' and most of all 'this fic is special' with an explanation of why it's special. Sometimes it happens, and when I get back I'm able to give feedback that I consider 'worthy', more often however I just give up and post something I could have just as well posted the first time around, but it's happening ever more that I just give up. Which is bad, and something I don't want, because lame feedback is better than no feedback.

So my resolution for this new year is to leave something, anything, for every fic I've enjoyed reading. Even if it's just 'I loved this, thank you'. Huh, just thinking of doing that makes me cringe; it's scary! How weird is that...